Monday, November 26, 2007

All in my mind?

"I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me, and 90% how I react to it. And so it is with you ... we are in charge of our Attitudes." ~ Charles Swindoll

You can see this quote on a poster in the bathroom of Hyman's down in Charleston, SC. Interesting place for inspiring words but I suppose they do have your undivided attention in that environment.

Anyway, I've seen this quote a lot. And you hear this a lot from well meaning folks when you're going through something you don't want to or annoying parents when you have to do something you don't want to. Problem is, I don't really freaking care how I respond to that 10% right now. Don't give a rip. It's too much effort and it's so much easier to throw myself a pity party, snap at my husband, and sulk. Even typing that I see how I ridiculous I'm being. But it's still there. My anger, frustration, the incredibly short fuse that resides in my emotions. I know that I have to choose gratefulness. Choose to trust that God has a purpose in the midst of all this nonsense. Choose to look for the best instead of focusing on the crap. But what if I don't want to? What then? Just wondering...

3 comments:

  1. Anonymous9:43 AM

    Time will provide the greatest insight to stupid, heartbreaking things Les...just keep yourself well right now and recognize that sometimes anger and frustration aren't bad emotions.
    Holley

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  2. Dear, you'll be miserable!

    Praying that by God's grace you will choose gratefulness and trust. You may not, and surely these rocky times will pass, but a spirit seasoned by grace can look at these times and weep at the ickiness of the broken world, but have hope.

    Love you--

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  3. Leslie - Know that I am sending a hug from afar. Hang on, keep talking to God. Keep taking care of yourself. Know, above all, that you are precious to so many, far and wide.

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